finally i can blog once agian.... on my mothers computer... hahaha... anyway... *cough cough* hmmm... well i almost lose her... i know that she have a very rough pass last time... tat makes her dont dare to love again... she say tat 'her heart is empty now.. she lost her self' she cannot find her self already... i kn0w very well about her pass... last night she was talking to her ex's tat make me fell very uncomfortable... first she was talking to her China friend... den she mention about me... i dont know maybe i'm abit dont like to suddenly know a guy... i feel very weird... ok den i went out coz they were talking by using video conversation on QQ... den after a while when i came back in i saw her chatting with her ex... wow.... hmmm... is a guy from iran.. i dont know wat she looks into him before... welll... den wat i know on tat time is i was damn piss tat's all... so i went out again... haiz... the hole night i was in and out tat's wat i know... den after at night we fight... well it was kinda hard to make her say tat she love's me... tell you onestly from the first day i know her until now she nvr say she loves me... and i fell very unsafe being together with her... but i understand her pass so i forgive her... one day i will hear her say 'CK I THINK I REALLY FALLLING IN LOVE WITH YOU ALREADY... I LOVE YOU CK' one day... i will wait joyce... anyway... after the fight den we watch movie... she fall asleep coz she was so tired... we woke up today at 6pm something... i know our life is like day change to night, night change to morning... haiz... den after tat she was very hungry she ask me to go down stairst to buy her bread and bring Bao Bao along.. oh ya... i have two little daughters adi... the cute one call Bao Bao the fat one call Bei Bei... hehe... anyway where was i... oh ya... she say bring Bao Bao along to buy bread... oh my got they are just so cute... den after tat 7pm something we decided to go to Alamanda to buy food goods... during us at the bus... she lay on my lap... i can tell you tat it was damn nice.. is like come come my dear i will protect you from this mean world... haha... onestly say it was damn nice... anyway... den after tat she baught damn alot of things really damn alot... haha... den after tat we went back home and we cook... wah cook damn alot you know... we wanted to eat with my mother... she just finish work rite.... den after tat when she some back she and her brother and man li went to the indian mamak to tkae some food make us damn disapointed because we cook alot... i mean alot... anyway... den i was on9 to check out friendster... seeing ppl's pic and all... den she came and sit on my lap... hmmm... and she hug me... hehe... how was the feeling? damn nice la of course... den after tat.... she went to take a bath... is my turn now... hehe is damn nice to blog again man... haha... oh ya... my two little daughter is a hamster damn cute wan you know... ^^